1 Year with Ash 🥂🥰

Queer love is sacred and magical 🪄🏳️‍🌈✨

I never thought I would meet someone so much like me. I thought I would always be alone.

But Ash and I instantly connected when we met on the HER dating app. They had SO much in common with me based on their bio: hobbies, values, politics, and we’re both trans. 🏳️‍⚧️

I kinda hate saying this because it’s cliche, but we feel like soul mates. ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 (Despite writing a whole poem about Ash and how I don’t believe in kindred spirits lol.) We feel like people formed from the same energy, who’ve maybe loved each other in past lives. Who knows.

All I know is that I want to love them for the rest of this one. 🥹 This is the easiest, calmest, safest relationship I’ve ever had. They understand me on a spiritual level. I never have to explain or defend myself.

Ash is so comforting and caring despite how much I struggle mentally and with life in general. They never judge or shame me. They love me through my pain even though I never fully trust anyone and my defenses are still raised. I’m chronically ill and disabled, but I’m not treated like a burden. They reassure me that they can handle and hold space for me.

They never call me too sensitive, lie, yell at, insult, shame, or hit me, unlike most of my past relationships. I’m so touch-repulsed from trauma that we still haven’t touched much over the past year. For months, we never touched each out of fear after past sexual assaults.

I’m still very much carefully allowing myself to relax, trust, and lean into them. This love is healing, a salve and stitches to deep wounds that refuse to close. I feel like I’m knitting back together.

This is also the first healthy, communicative polyamorous relationship I’ve had. Turns out dating hot transmascs instead of unstable, abusive cis men anymore is a HUGE improvement.

This past year with Ash has been magical. I have no idea what the future holds. But I look forward to spending as much time as possible together: video chatting, camping, going on road trips, watching our show, and finally making out lol. 🤭🥴🥰

I love you so much Ash. It’s not as scary to say that now. Move closer already! 🥹🥹❤️❤️❤️