I Never Fall Out of Love

After All This Time? Always

Soulful Love by @Esther_992 on Twitter

I still feel the embers of emotions

Stirring within me

That never fully went up in flames

Half baked ashes

That spell out their smoldering names

The remains of love

That no amount of pain can erase

I don’t think you ever

Stop loving people

And I love everyone I’ve ever met

I didn’t believe in love at first sight

Thought it could be

Caught and bottled

Locked away in a chest

But love only multiplies with time

Not divides

And I’m the sum

Of everyone I’ve encountered

Positive and negative

I’ve been crunching numbers

And I’ve found that love is infinite

The more people I add

To my affection

The more my spirit soars

I’ll love you

Until you become part of me

In the way my memories are:

Faded figures shrouded in the past

Inexplicable feelings

That live on in my chest

Years later

Still—I’ll love you simply because

The version of me that loved you

Never really left the driver’s seat

Just shifted places

Now they crowd in the back

And whisper directions in my ear

That road reminds me of him

This song reminds me of her

Every sign points to them

All my poems read like a road map

Guided back home to my heart

But I’ve got a landslide of emotions

I’m holding at bay

Until the day the dam breaks

Until they go up in flames

A phoenix rising from

The ashes of my shame and pain

From the loves I lost

And those that remain

And it’s funny

‘Cause I’m shit at math

And reading maps

But I know metaphor

And I’ll still love you lost in the dark

Of our current shared reality

I'll feel my way to you

When the signs all point to no

I’ll be wishing I still loved you

Like I miss you

But no matter what

I’ll still manage to find my way

Back to my heart

And I hope you follow me home

I’ll leave the door cracked

Even if I never backtrack

Because I never fall out of love

After all this time?

Always