Hate Mail Addressed to My Ex

Artist unknown

I hate that dirty trap house

And those decrepit, cruel boys

That tangle of cords

Snaking around underfoot

Your rotten breath and dirty nails

I hate how

I never took my mourning veil off

Around you

Because of you

How you held me as

I cried on your shoulder

And dried the tears of others

Behind my back

I hate how you

Could stare at yourself all day

But couldn’t face me straight

So I couldn’t see

The deceit swirling in your eyes

Only hear the spite you spit at me

While I was cleaning up your shit

I hate that you got so high

That you blasted off

And left me behind

Said with a vacant smile,

“This is how I would kill you.”

And showed me with your knife

Just as a joke of course

Many times

Fuck your woke boy scam

The way you held your cards close

And gambled my heart

Only fucking me to love bomb

You gave me the dick

Without the D, bitch!

Fuck your edgy hand tats

And disarming smirk

How you binge watch

And used me as a crutch

Fuck your hidden motives

The way you drained me

And licked the blood off your lips

I’m surprised you don’t burn

To a crisp in the sunlight

I hate how you still have such a hold on me

I hate how I can still see you in front of me

All mirth and malice

Leering at me and lying in the same breath

You are the epitome of

Humankind’s capacity for evil

All chaos and aggression

Leering at me cowering on the floor

I have little hope of redemption for you

I pity your wounds

I tended to them once

But fuck your tortured soul

You don’t get to torture me too

You sucked me

Into the underworld with you

When you lashed out and pulled the plug

The true depth of your treachery

Is still unknown to me

I hate you

I’ll hate you for the rest of my life

But from my own

Depths of compassion I harbor

That knows no bounds

I will always love you too

I never should’ve drawn from the well

And offered myself to you

But I won’t let

Your cruelty and carelessness

Pollute me any longer

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